Our beautiful baby boy arrived in this world on June 6th, 2012 at 3:55pm weighing 8lbs measuring 21in long and absolutely perfect. It was the moment that our lives changed forever. After 21 hours of labor - our little miracle was placed on my chest and so began our lives a parents. The emotions in that moment were so overpowering that the entire world seemed to slow down and become a blur. I hardly remember anything that happened in the moments after he was born. The love that coursed through me as I looked at his face and heard his beautiful cry for the first time was the most intense moment I have ever experienced. I was crying. Matt was crying. I was trying to comprehend the emotions I was feeling and allow myself to realize that this was real! After 9 long months, he was finally here in my arms!
Going though labor and giving birth was by far the most difficult and most painful experience of my life. I've had nightmares that I had to do it over again. Then I look at my son's handsome face and I forget about it all. There is no greater gift in the world. This mommy could not have asked for a better birthday present than having her son home for her birthday! (I told Landon while he was in my belly that I wanted him to be here for my birthday - I guess he wanted to make sure to give me that gift!). This face is worth everything I went through to get him here.
Pregnancy and becoming a mommy is the best thing that has ever happened to me. That last month of pregnancy was so hard - I couldn't wait for it to be over! Now that my precious son is here, I kind of miss it. I never thought I would say that. I miss feeling him move inside me. I miss touching my belly and feeling his little body. I miss the feeling that my body was growing this little miracle. But being a mommy is so much better. The feel of his soft skin against mine. The adorable little baby sounds he makes. When he stares into my eyes. Even changing poopy diapers! I love every single second. I have a whole new appreciation for my parents. They love me this much?!?! I'm not sure I fully understood love before becoming a mom. The love I feel for my baby is so fierce and so strong it sometimes feels as if it could rip my heart open. I am in awe of it all. Total awe.
This still feels a little like a dream. As if I will wake up and discover none of it ever really happened. I know that will change as having a baby in house becomes "normal", but for now we are just enjoying our time getting to know our baby boy - Landon Matthew Meo.
And baby makes three...